If you're happy and you know it, praise your God!
I've been feeling rather happy (or, at least happier than how I've been for the past months) these few days. I guess partly it is cos school's over (for now). Although I feel busy still, like there is so many things waiting to be done, yet I feel good. I want to go go go for God and because of God!
I guess it is really a matter of the choices and decisions you make. I've decided to choose what will edify me (and others), rather than subjecting myself to certain situations that will make me vulnerable and weak. I really learnt that I can choose, and decide how things go; so I am not helpless, I have a say in my future. And God is in my future. In fact, He is with me every day, every minute, every second. I feel soooooo glad just to know that. Like, He is always with me, in me; I am not lonely at all. (: And I want to spread this joy to the people around me. I hope that everyone can really rejoice, because of the Lord, and nothing else.
But, if God's will sometimes is for you to face up to certain things, or situations, then I've learnt that I must be brave enough to do it. How do I know its God's will? Cos I've tried to avoid it, but I can't... so I learnt submissiveness. Actually, I was really really scared. I don't think you know what I am talking about, or that you can understand how I felt, cos Im talking very vague here... But, I was really scared loh. Because I feel myself getting better le.. I don't want to ruin my recovery progress by subjecting myself to certain situations again. I felt that the best medicine is to go away and heal first. It was the only way; you need time for wound to close up right? In any case though, thank God, cos it wasn't that bad..... and having come through it, I feel myself getting stronger too. BUT, I got to keep praying.
OK, I better run! And probably I'll only be back late december. I really hope to immerse myself in the knowledge and love of God these few weeks. :D AND, come out stronger and better. I've said it yesterday during counselling. I want to get so close to God this theolo that even if I should lose everything, I can still smile and say, "It's OK." and praise and worship Him. So, please pray for me :)
