the time of singing has come!

Sooner or later, this mad world will drive me insane. Or maybe my coughing has shaken up my brain too much I have become skewed.

Maybe being sick makes me depressed.
Or maybe the chemicals in the many medicine I'm taking are making me insane.

I thought about how my students like to slash their arms so much.
And I thought that maybe I can bang my head against the wall?

Hahaha, I am going mad.


(praying that this moment will pass...)

Labels: one of those days, rant

My student slashed her wrist because she is feeling stressed. Why can't I?

Labels: rant

I left the place feeling like I have said more than what's okay to say.
I left the place wondering if I have given as much as I ought to have given.
I left, thinking whether I have gained what I should gain from this retreat.

Have I been genuine enough?
Have I been in communion with God?
Have I loved?
Have I learnt God?
Have I edify?
Have I been edified?

Nevertheless, I thank God for the opportunity to turn back to Him after having strayed so far away. I have turned back to Him, I have to keep going.

I have never realised that my bed felt so good. What belongs to you always feel the best and the most familiar; I must get it right - Jesus and His House belongs to me, not the world.

Labels: contemplation