the time of singing has come!

I should stop trying so hard.

Don't be silly to be the only one trying so hard and nobody even appreciates what you have done.

Stop trying so hard. In all areas of your life. Work, relationships, planning, etc.

Don't need to try so hard. It won't come to anything much in the end.

The past two days passed by in a daze.

The cough syrup that I took really puts me in a semi-conscious state. I was half-awake, half-asleep.

But the past two days had really given me the much-needed time alone.

Away from my students,
my work,
the burdens I bear...

Away from people,
from even my most loved one..

To just be...
And just... exist
for a while.

Sometimes, we go through life without actually existing, don't we?

I am not thinking about my students and how I cannot help them solve their life's issues.

I am not thinking about my wedding preparation and how to work out the finances.

I am not thinking about the performance tonight.

I am not thinking about anybody or anyone; I am just thinking about recovery and to sleep and to drink water and to take medicine.

And so, for the past two days, I honestly don't know how my time was spent, how time passed me by. I only remembered that I kept sleeping and waking to see that only half-hour has passed or an hour has passed and I was thinking to myself, time passes really slowly when you are so relaxed!

It reminded me of the time in Perth. :)

I really enjoyed my rest these two days.

It actually kind of recharges me and renews me.

And thankfully, my throat recovered in time for a performance at a company event.

It is now Sabbath.
Peace.

Labels: contemplation

Some days ago.. I felt a tug in my heart to start writing again.

I really miss writing and sharing my thoughts and feelings in a space where I can be truly me.

Perhaps, even more so, I miss reflecting... Reflections gave me a chance to really dwell within myself and to allow myself to grow as a person.

I felt like my growth has been stunted... And at times I feel lost.

That tug continues to stay in my heart and it starts to grow bigger. I remembered that I had a dream to write and to write for God.. then why am I delaying?

Waiting for the perfect time to start? There ain't gonna come a perfect time to start this dream of mine and if I want to even try to make it happen, I got to start now.

There is no perfect time to serve God.

It is in the everyday where the real serving begins.

When you are tied down by the laundry, and the chores, and the busyness of life weighs on you, and the temptations of worldly pleasures are calling out to you, what do you choose to do? Can you still serve God in the midst of your life on earth?

In your everyday real life, when you are not in church, do you still serve Him?

If this is really what i want to do in and with my life, I cannot wait any longer. It has to start now.

I need the Holy Spirit to ignite the fire in me again and I need to set aside time to restart my writing (and reading).

May God bless.

Labels: contemplation