call me U. G. L. Y.
ugly ugly ugly
you know the game we play at Settlers' cafe
quite a dumb game huh
but those three words kept repeating themselves in my head today
):
i dont even know how to pray before God
i feel unworthy
like, how long more do i need?
keep falling short of the glory of God
i think, soon, i will be cast out into the fire
but
im so tired
drained
im not sure how else to do this
what else to do
how much more effort to put in
im not sure how to change my heart
its not as easy as i made it seemed in my theolo's sermon
can i start all over again?
i thought i can once i returned from aussie
but strangely
everything remained status quo
it must be my heart
whats wrong with me
----
to remember HUMILITY (remove ALL pride please),
Not to expect anything from anyone (then each small gesture would be a blessing and grace from God),
That i am unworthy to do His work, but He gives me the chance to serve Him,
and LOVE.
you know, the love as defined by the bible?
if i truly love, then probably i can become more beautiful
not ugly
like now
my apologies
you know the game we play at Settlers' cafe
quite a dumb game huh
but those three words kept repeating themselves in my head today
):
i dont even know how to pray before God
i feel unworthy
like, how long more do i need?
keep falling short of the glory of God
i think, soon, i will be cast out into the fire
but
im so tired
drained
im not sure how else to do this
what else to do
how much more effort to put in
im not sure how to change my heart
its not as easy as i made it seemed in my theolo's sermon
can i start all over again?
i thought i can once i returned from aussie
but strangely
everything remained status quo
it must be my heart
whats wrong with me
----
to remember HUMILITY (remove ALL pride please),
Not to expect anything from anyone (then each small gesture would be a blessing and grace from God),
That i am unworthy to do His work, but He gives me the chance to serve Him,
and LOVE.
you know, the love as defined by the bible?
if i truly love, then probably i can become more beautiful
not ugly
like now
my apologies