the time of singing has come!

Lord,
You have my full attention.
And I want to keep it this way.

心阿！
你得死心。

Only when you are dead to the things of the past, then can Jesus be alive in you.

post-it pad in my head is getting scribbles everywhere again
it's so full now that i don't think i can squeeze anymore things in
but God always have the most amazing grace to supply to those who need it
when we really need it

I was really tired today
seriously
I know I was cos I cried
But when you actually cry in your prayers
thats when you receive the most comfort.
after the prayer (and the sermon)
i found the strength to go on again
even though i was still tired.
but i also know that it is not just me who is tired
so when i think about my co-workers
i know that i am not alone

someone told me this after i returned from aussie feeling really tired
that u know
even though you might be feeling tired already from all the sightseeing
but you still continue on with your itinerary
going to places and stuffs
because you know that soon you will return home
and you can rest for all you want

same goes for our lives on earth now i guess
thats how i motivate myself and push myself on
my itinerary is packed
or at least i hope to accomplish all those things
because a price was paid for me to be here
(just like you pay for your air ticket to be there)
so I better make the most out of it
i must finish whats on my itinerary before I return home
else it will only be a wasted trip
pple will ask you "oh, so did you go here and do that?"
and you say, "ehh no..."
"then what did you go there for!!?!"

same thing when we return home
Jesus will ask us "so, have you done this and that?"
I want to proudly pick up my itinerary and show Him
"Yes! I completed all that is on my itinerary which You have planned for me!"

So even though I am tired now
Even though sometimes I feel lonely and strengthless
like, "Can I really do this?"
but I will press onwards
He will supply the strength I lack
at the most opportune time.

but yes,
I also believe that i need to sleep more
4-5 hrs a day for extended period of time is going to kill me sooner or later
sleep restores the body the way prayer restores the soul

God,
please help my heart.
To be more humble
more forgiving
more loving.

I love my JYs!

Already starting to miss them.
All the late nights are worth it.

I hope all of them went home edified and full of the grace of the Lord.
I did.
I cherish this opportunity to grow yet again in Him (:

Another one's coming.
Although im a little apprehensive.
And scared.
Not sure if I can go back to where it all begin
But no way am I letting this chance pass just because of it

To grow in the knowledge of Him
And to seek after His heart and will.
This was also what I encouraged my students..

more later (maybe)

I can't believe myself sometimes.
I have gone against what I had told God I would want to do for Him

Because I have found my vision clouded by more and more things
Too distracted
Losing sight of Jesus
Losing hold of Him

So I realised that there are perhaps things I have to let go
I have to say "No"

But then I found myself bathing in the delight of what happens next
And I hear myself giving myself excuses, or pushing back the "No"

arrrghhh.
Resolution, mx.
dont be deceived by what you see in front
it might really be nothing at all

Without the blessing and abidance of God,
nothing will stand.

I want to restore the transparency I preach.
to be clear as crystal (Revelation 21:11)

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please pray for me because I have been feeling really tired.
lack of sleep really
but... i really have no time to sleep much
):
pray that i can share the Word of God effectively with my students
and continue to be humble and to learn
thanks