the time of singing has come!

Trying to pen down my emotions
but the words won’t flow.

Watching the others take flight
Soaring to greater heights
While it seems like I’ve been around..
In this place..
For quite a while.

And each time I think I’ve moved on
I realized I have not.
Because the heart still tugs,
And the hands still go weak.

Who don’t feel lonely?
Who don’t feel weak?
I too yearn for a listening ear
To listen to the jokes my kids made
To hear about my mood swings.
But who would bother these days?
Do I even spend time listening to others?
Do others even tell me things?

Why have those who once were close
Become like distant acquaintances?
“Friendships” that did not pass the test of time and trials.
How sad…

Alone at home typing away
With only the piano playing away in the background
In fact, this brings me the most comfort.
Albeit tears will drop,
The heart feels sad,
But this is when I know that Jesus is closest.

I need not do anything.
I need not try to be anybody.
I can be just me.
Who else can let you feel this way?
Who else but only Jesus?

I want to fall in love with Jesus again.
So that only He can tug at my heart.
So that only His love can make me go weak.

Because His love is more than I deserve.