Psychosomatic
It's been difficult
To breathe
To take a deep breath in and to exhale
Requires consciousness and effort
I wonder what is it that I'm struggling with
Is it the internal or the external?
Am I fighting within or without?
Am I changing without my awareness?
I feel like I'm on a swing
Being tossed back and forth
And I'm being swung up higher and higher
It's scary
Yet
I don't want to stop either
Chasing after happiness or seeking after God?
What outcome do I want?
To breathe
To take a deep breath in and to exhale
Requires consciousness and effort
I wonder what is it that I'm struggling with
Is it the internal or the external?
Am I fighting within or without?
Am I changing without my awareness?
I feel like I'm on a swing
Being tossed back and forth
And I'm being swung up higher and higher
It's scary
Yet
I don't want to stop either
Chasing after happiness or seeking after God?
What outcome do I want?
...take a leap?
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Heart To Heart With Holley says...
"When you don't know the next step...
I see you peering down the path.
Wondering, can I do this?
Am I enough?
Yes to both.
And then asking, Do I take this step?
I've asked this question too...staring at the ceiling in the night, over coffee with friends, driving in my car.
Then I think of this verse, this bit of wisdom from Proverbs 19:21--
You can make many plans, but the Lord's purpose will prevail.
If we've prayed, asked wise counsel, then we can go with confidence. Even if our first step is imperfect, perhaps not even in quite the right direction, God will align us with His purpose by the end.
But here's the thing.
You can't redirect someone who is standing still.
Yes, there are seasons for staying.
This is about the seasons of going, setting out, those times when your heart is restless and your feet are ready.
If that's you then go without fear.
God is with you, for you, behind you, and ahead of you.
And even if you lose your way for a bit. Even if you grow weary. Even if you don't know which direction to go at times. His purposes will prevail.
Take that step, woman of courage.
And know that love goes with you all the way."
Posted by Anonymous | 11:41 PM