the time of singing has come!

It's been probably a year since I last felt this way.

The warmth of the Spirit enveloping you.
The Spirit giving you utterance.
You can't even speak for your own, because the Spirit is speaking for you.
Tears wet your eyes and your cheeks.
You know that God is listening and that He is willing to enter into you once again to fill you to the uttermost.
Whatever wrongs you have done, He is willing to wash them again.

When the Spirit comes knocking at your heart's door, and you yield to Him and open the door to Him, He enters into your innermost chambers and is... with you.
His presence fills you.
He intercedes for you.
Prayer no longer becomes a chore; prayers become sweet.
Prayers become so easy.
It's a wonderful feeling to know that God abides with you and in you.

I prayed for him, for us.
I have my fears, deep fears.
But I know that God will give me strength.
And somehow I also know that this strength is given me, not only for me, but for him.
This is a ministry that God has given me and I know that as long as I first stay close to God, I can do it well.

To present everyone perfect before Christ.
For this reason, God has revisited me in my cries, and grant me strength.

I must be sensitive.
I must support him.
I must be his helper.
I must be strong.

Lord, he is really tired. Please give him the rest that is in You.

We need You to fill our empty and dry souls.

Labels: contemplation

有时以为他不配
但其实是自己不配。。

那天行走时，我握着他的手，走的比较快一些，所以老是觉得好像拖着一个负担，很沉重，很累，便随口说，好累喔，为什么老是我牵着你走？

还以为他不会知道隐藏的意思，但他看了看我，嘟嘴，说，好啦！我来牵着你，我来带领你吧！

他明白我指的是信仰。

老是觉得软弱的是他
但可能真正无力的是自己吧。

我得努力
我需要信仰的复兴！

"He doesn't love me when I'm sick."

It does feel that way...

But knowing that he does love me helps.

Maybe it's the expression of it. Maybe it's because it's not how we expect or want it to be..

Isn't it the same with God's love sometimes?

This morning when I woke up, the very first instant was calm and contentment but the very next second when it became clear to me that I'm living in this world with my work still pending and the problems and issues that exist, immediately it's like reality just wrapped itself around me and squeezes me and it felt like a burden again. I felt heavy again. The pain in my chest came about again.

The last time this happens was that year when I fell into a depressive episode, only realizing it after visiting a GP.

I don't want to be depressed again.