Thoughts on a train to TTSH
算了啦。
aiyah.. 死就死了lo... I can't do anything now right? I don't think he can be saved le. There is just nothing I can do le. Ask ministers to come also won't save his life anyway le. Maybe I shall just leave things as it is.
But why? Is his life so worthless? Does God see it as so worthless too?
No right? Every individual's life is precious in God's sight. And God desires that all men be saved. God wouldn't use his life just to test me. He wouldn't toy with someone's life like that. He isn't cruel.
But what if the ministers came, and then shortly after he can't make it? My entire family will blame me. I would have lost any chance of preaching to them then. Nobody will accept or listen to what I have to say anymore. Might as well just skip this time round and just let it pass..... without even a sound..
But how could I? How could I be so cruel not to even try? How could I miss the opportunity given by God? How could I see his life as so insignificant?
It was then that I felt a knock on my head. A tug at the door of my heart. How faithless I have been! I doubted God's mercies. I doubted His plan. I doubted His almightiness.
His plans for me are not of evil, but of hope and a future. I was too worried that my family might accused me. I was also worried that I will cause him more harm than good. But who knows, maybe the prayers of faith will make him feel better, give him peace, even if it may not save his soul. And who knows, maybe he will be healed and even be baptised? And maybe it is a door from God to finally reach out to my family, even my grandma? Maybe this is the future that He is trying to plan for me, but it would require me to open that door myself...
And even if something less pleasant should happen, and I be persecuted, it is alright as long as I know that it is still according to His plan. His plan is good. It will be good. Just that I don't know what it is yet...
God is in every circumstances that we meet in life. He must be there. There wouldn't be something that happened that God didn't know of. He is there, hoping to steer us on the right track, but because He isn't all-controlling, He doesn't take the steering wheel himself. So, since God is behind the picture, something good must come out of this. If I know what is His will. And if knowing what is His will, I act upon it.
Please pray for my grandpa, my family and me. Thanks.
aiyah.. 死就死了lo... I can't do anything now right? I don't think he can be saved le. There is just nothing I can do le. Ask ministers to come also won't save his life anyway le. Maybe I shall just leave things as it is.
But why? Is his life so worthless? Does God see it as so worthless too?
No right? Every individual's life is precious in God's sight. And God desires that all men be saved. God wouldn't use his life just to test me. He wouldn't toy with someone's life like that. He isn't cruel.
But what if the ministers came, and then shortly after he can't make it? My entire family will blame me. I would have lost any chance of preaching to them then. Nobody will accept or listen to what I have to say anymore. Might as well just skip this time round and just let it pass..... without even a sound..
But how could I? How could I be so cruel not to even try? How could I miss the opportunity given by God? How could I see his life as so insignificant?
It was then that I felt a knock on my head. A tug at the door of my heart. How faithless I have been! I doubted God's mercies. I doubted His plan. I doubted His almightiness.
His plans for me are not of evil, but of hope and a future. I was too worried that my family might accused me. I was also worried that I will cause him more harm than good. But who knows, maybe the prayers of faith will make him feel better, give him peace, even if it may not save his soul. And who knows, maybe he will be healed and even be baptised? And maybe it is a door from God to finally reach out to my family, even my grandma? Maybe this is the future that He is trying to plan for me, but it would require me to open that door myself...
And even if something less pleasant should happen, and I be persecuted, it is alright as long as I know that it is still according to His plan. His plan is good. It will be good. Just that I don't know what it is yet...
God is in every circumstances that we meet in life. He must be there. There wouldn't be something that happened that God didn't know of. He is there, hoping to steer us on the right track, but because He isn't all-controlling, He doesn't take the steering wheel himself. So, since God is behind the picture, something good must come out of this. If I know what is His will. And if knowing what is His will, I act upon it.
Please pray for my grandpa, my family and me. Thanks.
