the time of singing has come!

It's been five years since I started looking for you. And I am still looking for you.

Where are you?

Are you hiding in a corner too? Do you feel lonely too?

I felt lonely today, that's why I thought of you.

You know, I can't help but feel left out today. I know it must be me; why do I feel so different from everyone? Am I looking for the wrong things? I must be. It must be my own heart. I tried very hard to have God change my heart. Not asking for friends, but to be a friend.

I really really miss you. I wish you were right here with me. Then I would tell you all that is kept within me. I would pour out all hidden emotions, and you would understand. Yet, you would also give me godly advice. You would gently rebuke me with the Word of God. And I would do the same to you too. We would hold each other by the arm, and be very thankful.

I once thought I found you. But it turned out that it wasn't you.

You must be somewhere. Where are you?

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Actually, as one grows older, one gradually realise that only God can take up that place. That special you is the Lord. This thought actually made me smile, despite everything else.