Much pondering
Teacher's Day.A day to ponder if one is really suitable to be a teacher.
Many thoughts yesterday at school - it was a little disappointing how the day went. I wonder why..
I came to realise that I still care a lot about what people think. How do my students think about me? How do my colleagues think about me? If I do this, what would they think? If I didn't do that, what would they think?
And as I go on with my every day, it gets frustrating at times when I don't seem to be doing things the way I would like to.
I would like to be ME. But I forgot how to.
Or when things don't go the way I expect them to, I get discouraged.
Expectations... another weakness.
When I have expectations, I cannot readily accept when things turn out differently.
Anyway, there are still quite a number of things which I am silently pondering over in my heart. May they find their way out soon.
