stop and turn around
spending some time alone to myself
didn't let anything bother me
except the random thoughts that passes through my mind
finally I got home and found Hann craving for some attention
for he has been alone at home the entire day
as I stroke His fur, watching him lying down in submissiveness, enjoying the affection
I realised I yearn for such affection too
that thought brought a void in my heart
for I do not want anything else to satisfy me, except Jesus
I think I need to learn to take a step back
I need to learn to wait
for I am also afraid to go nearer
to know deeper
and to be known deeper
maybe I am just afraid to be hurt again
in any case, I think I should first be resolved to take a step back.
didn't let anything bother me
except the random thoughts that passes through my mind
finally I got home and found Hann craving for some attention
for he has been alone at home the entire day
as I stroke His fur, watching him lying down in submissiveness, enjoying the affection
I realised I yearn for such affection too
that thought brought a void in my heart
for I do not want anything else to satisfy me, except Jesus
I think I need to learn to take a step back
I need to learn to wait
for I am also afraid to go nearer
to know deeper
and to be known deeper
maybe I am just afraid to be hurt again
in any case, I think I should first be resolved to take a step back.
waiting is the hardest thing ever.. esp when we want something solved badly.
but waiting can be less painful if we know how to trust in God's timing and plan.
king saul didn't and when he went to offer sacrifices to God in place of samuel.
How to know His timing and plan? hah, I dunno, i'm still trying to experience this. I only know must pray abt it daily.
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nah |
9:54 PM