the time of singing has come!

Thankful
for ice cream,
for a good bible study,
for dinner together.

It was great to break the ice,
and to laugh together.
:)

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However,
the Elijah syndrome keeps threatening to surface.
God, why is it always me, me, me?
God, why don't others take initiative too?
Why is it only me that take notice and care?

I know that these aren't true...
Everyone does their part.
And everyone does care.
Perhaps it is just that I didn't notice.
Perhaps I am blinded by my own pride.

But....
at the end of the day.
I feel..... kind of lonely.
Or maybe I am feeling left-out.
I think that it takes two hands to clap (can't think of a better idiom)?
So it is the same for friendship too.
I feel that for a friendship to work,
the two's personalities must be able to complement each other.

I know that there are many areas for me to improve on, but
It is really difficult to find someone who truly understands you
and fits into you, like two pieces of the jigsaw puzzle.
Someone who listens when you talk,
and talks when you listen.
Someone whom you feel completely at peace with,
because you know what he/she is thinking,
and you know he/she knows you,
and so every little actions of you does not matter much
because he/she sees you as you,
not see your actions and speech as you.

So at times when you act silly, its ok
At times when you get emotional, its ok
At times when you are serious, its ok too.

It is really not easy to find someone like that.
I know I'm finding in the wrong places.
I know I should be looking at Jesus.
And He is,
He is someone like that to me.

But sometimes,
I wish...
I can also have someone like that on earth with me,
to be my spiritual soulmate,
my good co-worker,
my fellow soldier of God.

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*deep breath*
It's time to move on (:

Sometimes a heavy thought wears down the mind
And you are not sure the source.
Multiple events come one after another
No space for negotiation of the mind
No time to knock some sense using the Word
And ugly thoughts remain...

Sometimes an ugly thought dulls the soul
When you realise Pride and Selfishness have come by to play
And you had entertained them for a while
thinking they were Warmth and Love
No wonder you feel these negativities
No way you could have hide it from God
And these were revealed just so you know...

Sometimes a light surprises
the Christian while he sings
For in declining comfort, the Lord grants the soul
The breeze of the Holy Spirit calms you
The gentleness of His Voice cheers you
And suddenly the load is taken away
and nothing else matters.
Not any person, not any incident,
not any word or deed.

Sometimes a light surprises you when you least expect it
and that light shines bright into your soul, casting out the dull.

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It saddens me to hear of the news
and I can almost feel what you are going through.

I don't know what else to say.
But know that I am thinking of and praying for you.

I pray that God will have mercy and lead you by His hand.
Take care, beloveds.

Every child needs to be loved.
They need to know that someone loves and genuinely cares about them.
This gives them a safe environment to explore their world and themselves.
It gives them a safe place to grow in.

There was a time when I felt that I was not loved at all.
I felt that NOBODY love me at all, and I didn't love myself very much too.
That was the most horrible period.

But today, I know very clearly that I am loved.
At least, a few faces would pop out in my head whenever I think about those who love me.
And this helps.
It helps through difficult times when we feel so tired to move on, or when we feel that it is meaningless to move on.
It helps when one is not feeling too good about oneself.

During these times, I would think,
what good do they actually see in me?
Perhaps, there is really some good in each of us.
It's just that we are too discouraged to see them.
Or perhaps, the truth really is, there is nothing so good about us at all.
Yet, these people who love me still continue to love me.
They make me feel safe and comfortable to be myself.
But at the same time, motivated to grow to be a better person.
And these are also the ones who seem to be "always there", never leaving your side at all.

God make me feel this way too. (:

“For you are a holy people to the LORD your God; the LORD your God has chosen you to be a people for Himself, a special treasure above all the peoples on the face of the earth. The LORD did not set His love on you nor choose you because you were more in number than any other people, for you were the least of all peoples; but because the LORD loves you, and because He would keep the oath which He swore to your fathers, the LORD has brought you out with a mighty hand, and redeemed you from the house of bondage, from the hand of Pharaoh king of Egypt. (Deuteronomy 7:6-8)

God knows that we all need a safe environment in order to grow. Which is why the Church is established in love. We then can grow together spiritually, knowing that we are safe to do so because we love and accept each other unconditionally. How can we grow if we are always living in fear or suspicion?

One way that has helped me greatly is the thought that the same Holy Spirit is living in each one of us, and is moving each of us from within. Therefore, how can the Holy Spirit contradicts Himself? As long as we yield to the moving of the Holy Spirit, all of us should be heading for the same goal and direction.

Do you feel safe in the Church today?
If you do, are you growing?
:>

but, speaking the truth in love, may grow up in all things into Him who is the head—Christ— from whom the whole body, joined and knit together by what every joint supplies, according to the effective working by which every part does its share, causes growth of the body for the edifying of itself in love. (Ephesians 4:15-16)