the time of singing has come!

so happy it's Sabbath!

I feel that I have worked really hard today (and for the past week) and I deserve a good rest!

:)

And actually, even though teaching was tough and tiring.... but I really enjoyed it. especially when I see my kids get it. :) *big smile*

that has been on my mind... and I haven't got round to asking people about it...

Did God really meant to save me?

the sky has been a beautiful shade of blue with white greyish clouds around evening time these few days.

I enjoy walking beneath the sky during these times.

(:

Trying to pen down my emotions
but the words won’t flow.

Watching the others take flight
Soaring to greater heights
While it seems like I’ve been around..
In this place..
For quite a while.

And each time I think I’ve moved on
I realized I have not.
Because the heart still tugs,
And the hands still go weak.

Who don’t feel lonely?
Who don’t feel weak?
I too yearn for a listening ear
To listen to the jokes my kids made
To hear about my mood swings.
But who would bother these days?
Do I even spend time listening to others?
Do others even tell me things?

Why have those who once were close
Become like distant acquaintances?
“Friendships” that did not pass the test of time and trials.
How sad…

Alone at home typing away
With only the piano playing away in the background
In fact, this brings me the most comfort.
Albeit tears will drop,
The heart feels sad,
But this is when I know that Jesus is closest.

I need not do anything.
I need not try to be anybody.
I can be just me.
Who else can let you feel this way?
Who else but only Jesus?

I want to fall in love with Jesus again.
So that only He can tug at my heart.
So that only His love can make me go weak.

Because His love is more than I deserve.

I feel (and know) that there is something inherently wrong about me
and I don't like it.

There are many things that worry me, but many things that I am helpless over.
Many people whom I care deeply for, but whom I do not know how to love.
Many things that tug at my heart constantly.
Many things that scares me.

I miss God, I don't know why.
Guess I have not put Him first place in my heart again.
I have lose sight of Jesus once again.

"Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things.
But one thing is needed,
and Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her." (Luke 10:41-42)

okay, it's time for Bible reading and reflections.

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I am scared of the person I am becoming.
Please bring me safely home.

After a week of hard work, it's time for a nice sweet sleep and a blessed sabbath rest. :)

Let me put everything aside. I will worry about them on Sunday.

I could not control my tears from flowing down in front of my students.

It's not that I am angry at them. Perhaps I was at that moment. But really, when I think back, I was feeling more exasperated and helpless than angry.

I walked out of the classroom, just like the first time.

Perhaps I am still not as good as I thought I am. A good teacher would probably have better control of her emotions, isn't it?

It did make me feel quite sad... and discouraged, although, if you remember, I was just feeling high on the Spirit last night!

I guess I AM tired. But I got to pull through... All the planning work, the lesson plan, and the lesson preparation.... I need to have more time to do my preparation or else my students can't learn much. I need to stay focused still. Until next week.... it should become better.

I need to rest so that I can have better classroom management. I will rest.... but I got to press on first. At least until this week is over.

Was really feeling lethargic by the time I got home today. But when I saw my new profile picture on my blog: "the joy of the Lord is your strength", these words gave me quite some encouragement.

Facing my work with a smile does give me more strength than facing my work with a frown. Try it!

And when I was thinking whether all my efforts are worth it, I remembered the movie 'Fireproof' when the male lead realised that true love is still making the sacrifice even when most people would reckon it is not worth it.

Jesus did it. I shall learn from His example. :)

I am running on the oil of the Holy Spirit!

Seriously!

Praise God :D

It's going to be a challenging week ahead.

But I hope to be able to take on it with faith and strength in Christ Jesus!

One day at a time, one thing at a time.

The sweeper in orange whom I pass by every morning while I walk to school.
Every time I see him, he is ever so faithfully sweeping the drain.
What keeps him going, cleaning the same stretch of drain morning after morning?
Isn't he bored?

My pa pa who has been waking up every morning at 530am for the past few decades for his work.
What gives him the strength to sit up, wash up, and go out every morning?

But yes, I would love to have Jesus as my motivation.
I just need to work on it a little more.

I need some motivation in my life......
Something to keep me going
Something to keep me smiling
Something to tell me it's worth it.

When can I have some motivation?